Can't Decide!!

I can't decide if I want to forget you and move on, or keep holding on. It's not really my choice anyway, but even if it was, I couldn't decide. And i don't know if I want to see you or not. I don't know what's worse : not seeing you and missig you , or seeing you and just feeling worse for not being able to be close to you. My eyes search for you, always. The only problem is, once I find you, I can't do anything.I'm PARALYZED. Being so close, yet so far, it's unbearable. You're always just out of reach. I wonder why my heart won't let go of something so impossible ?